6:15 PM – Dear faithful prayer warriors and dear friends,
I wanted to post an update and try to express my extreme gratitude for all your prayers, sacrifices, calls, texts, all the people who have jumped in to take care of kids, and support us.
I’m so blown away and in awe of all of you. I know you are all carrying me through this. I praise God for his infinite mercy. God has been so good to me.
I know Mother Mary has me wrapped very tightly in her mantle. She is holding me close to her Son. I am so blessed and cared for perfectly by everyone.
As I was pondering this difficult time a communion song came to my mind. Here I am Lord, is it I Lord? I will go Lord, if you lead me. I have heard you calling in the night.
Every word of that song is what my soul is saying. He hears my cry and he will make my night bright. Jesus, I trust in you, even when I don’t understand.
Before this suffering I never understood how suffering could be a blessing, but I understand now. It has been a blessing.
I see how God is working, directing and so lovingly caring for every one of us. I’m sorry if this is scattered, I have so many thoughts that I want to share and I’m not good at putting all my thoughts into words. I’m not sure of the journey that lies ahead but I know God is in control and His will for my life is what I want.
Of course, I pray that it is not cancer, that I will be restored to full health very soon.
As for an update, I was released from hospital yesterday around 1:45 PM we went to a hotel in Costa Mesa for the night. The transition to the hotel was much more difficult than I thought it was going to be. Once I was able to get settled it was wonderful. I was able to sit in the jet tub and finally clean myself up. I relaxed with lavender Epsom salt that Laura brought me. It was perfect.
Damien and I were able to get some rest and sleep without nurses, poke, prods, nuero checks, etc. This morning we left the hotel and came to my parents’ house. My parents live 30 seconds from where we live so it is such a huge blessing to be here.
I’m close to the kids but also have a quiet place to rest and recover. The kids came over and I was able to sit and spend time with them. It was so nice. I also got to hold my baby boy. It felt wonderful to be with everyone.
I will have lots of doctor appts and therapies to do in the coming weeks. I know I am in the perfect place and we will persevere through this with God’s love and guidance every step of the way.
I thank God for sustaining me, holding me, loving me and putting all of you in my life to love and support us. I want to thank so many people. I want to thank my parents and my mother-in-law Kari for jumping in and working so tirelessly to care for all the kids, getting up in the middle of the night with the baby and doing everything at home. I want to thank my kids, especially Leah and Eden. I’m so proud of all of them. they have all stepped up so much, helping wherever they can. Leah and Eden have been staying up with baby in middle of the night to give Kari a break.
It has been an incredible sight to witness. I’m so blessed; I will never be able to express my full gratitude. I want to thank all my friends, Laura, Maryann, Alberta, Elise, and Lauren Rubal for dropping everything to help us with anything we need no matter the hour of the day or night. I’m so unworthy of this perfect loving care. I don’t want to forget anyone because every one of you are holding us and supporting us, loving us so perfectly. Please accept my meager thank you. I am praying and offering up my sufferings for each of you.
May God bless you all abundantly. Our community is so beautiful and priceless. I have had people I don’t even know come see me in the hospital, encourage me, drive my kids to co-op, bring meals. How blessed am I?! God is so good. Thank you, Lord, for my life, for the crosses you gave me. I pray I will bear them as a worthy servant so as to hear the Lord say, well done good and faithful servant.
I love visitors and hearing from all of you so never feel like you are intruding. We will continue to keep you posted on what’s happening. Please be assured of our prayers for all of you. Please message any prayer requests and we will be praying for you.
I love you all.
god bless you all,
Ashley
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